Keepin on keepin on

Sorry I fell off the face of the earth for a couple of days there.  I assure you that everything is going well.  The highlights of the last few days:

Still no drive thru, fast food, or secret eating.  I can’t even tell you how huge this is in my life.  If last Saturday’s Arby’s with the family counts as my last fast food excursion, that means I am now completing my 10th day of fast food “sobriety”.  I’m super excited about that.

I have had restaurant food three consecutive days and I’ve made decent choices.

Olive Garden Saturday night with a friend from high school and our families.  Victories:

  • chose to drink water
  • didn’t even TOUCH a single breadstick
  • chose a dish off the low-calorie menu, so nothing alfredo or parmesan or carbonara

Mexican food with church friends Sunday night.  Victories:

  • no sour cream or queso
  • tacos with grilled shrimp and lots of veggies
  • chose water

Monday lunch at Chili’s with a colleague.  Victories:  Facts:

  • Well… um…. I had chicken fingers, fries, and a diet coke…  but the good news is I spent most of the day walking around, standing around, chugging water, climbing stairs, etc. – otherwise known as NOT sitting on my butt and stuffing my face with mindless food.  So while I can’t necessarily call the Chili’s trip a “win”, I’m willing to at least partially justify it due to increased activity that day.

Today it was back to work, which meant back to the routine.  (How far I’ve come that I no longer fear the work week and its drive thru temptation!)  Slim-Fast for breakfast, carrots, yogurt, frozen dinner (for lunch) and then homecooked food for dinner.  Lots of water.

I have not weighed myself since a little over a week ago when my grandma offered to pay me to lose weight.  Our bathroom scale is at the new house, and I haven’t been there much over the last few days.

I think it’s just as well.  I’m sure I’ve lost some weight, but I worry that I’m not yet ready to analyze results.

If I got on the scale and didn’t see much of a loss after 10 days, I would probably be pissed and discouraged.

If I DID see a big loss, I might get complacent.  And then in another week when I didn’t see ANOTHER big loss, I would probably be pissed and discouraged.

So, I’m just going to keep on trucking, and maybe eventually I’ll re-weigh.  But not anytime really soon.

Still on the Wagon

My husband let me have my debit card alone for a little bit last night.

I hesitate to post something like that, because my inner women’s libber want’s to be like “let me?  LET me?  Oh no you DIDN’T!!!”

So I just want to put it out there that this is an agreement we made together that I’m relinquishing control of the debit card for a little while.  Just until I create a pattern of success as far as breaking my drive thru habit.

So, last night I needed the debit card to go make an ATM deposit, and my son and I drove to the bank and got that done. I passed a Sonic, an Arby’s, a Wendy’s, a McDonald’s, and a Jack in the Box.  Passed, I tell you. 

So, that felt good.  A little willpower in action.

Incidentally, not to go into Everything I Eat Mode… but I’ve pretty much kept up the same kind of diet that I described on Wednesday for the remainder of the week.  “Weight Loss Shake” for breakfast.  Carrots and yogurt as snacks, salad and/or frozen dinner for lunch, and a sensible dinner at home.

Which brings me to my love/hate relationship with Slim-Fast shakes (mine are off brand, but the same concept).  Does the phrase “and a sensible dinner” flash back to Slim-Fast for anyone else but me?  I get visions of Tomma Lasorda, or the Slim Fast can with a belt on.

The love part.  I think they taste good.  Or at least good enough.  I’m not, like, choking it down.  They’re super easy for a non-morning person such as myself who refuses to take time to eat breakfast at a table or at my desk.  I drink the shake in the car, and I’m good.

I hate the name.  I feel like I’m a fad-dieter when I’m drinking a “Slim Fast” or a “Weight Loss Shake”.  It’s like I’m buying into a get-rich-quick scheme.

I hate buying them.  I feel like I’m being judged by the cashier or the people behind me in line.  “Slim Fast?  Yeah, good luck with that, lady.”

Why am I so weird about this?  Am I being crazy?

What other no-prep breakfast options are out there with the convenience of a Slim Fast?  Anyone?

Getting Easier…

Not much too report today, honestly.

The whole thing is getting easier – I’m slipping back into my old Weight Watchers ways from three years ago.

I forgot how much you EAT when you’re on a diet.

Today:

House brand Slim Fast for breakfast

Bag of baby carrots when I got to work

Smart Ones frozen dinner for lunch.  I forget the exact name but I know it was a Vodka Cream Sauce in there somewhere.  You had me at Vodka.

Strawberry yogurt cup for an afternoon snack

Leftover meatloaf for dinner with a glass of milk

Lots and lots of ice water throughout the day

Drove back and forth to work without really having to think twice about stopping for fast food.  Now, this was partially aided by the fact that I was on the phone for much of my drive home, but still.

A victory is still a victory.

High Energy

My husband, as I was on the way out the door to work this morning: “I would tell you to have a good day, but it looks like you’re already having one.”

This was said of course, not long after I woke him up by jumping on the bed and saying “you’re not sleeping you’re not sleeping you’re not sleeping you’re not sleeping” until he opened his eyes.

So, I think it’s safe to say my energy level has increased.

Also, it’s possible that I’m four years old.

I’m Starting to Get Used to This

Four days in, and feeling good.

Still no fast food.  Had a little peanut butter on toast for breakfast.

I know right?  Look at me, having breakfast!

Lunch was a deliciously processed frozen dinner of some kind of chicken pasta with a basil cream situation happening.  I dug it.

Lots of ice water at the office again.  Only took a single serve bag of Annie’s Chocolate Chip Bunny Graham things.  120 calories, not too shabby.

Dinner was meatloaf and a glass of milk.

So, I type this and I realize I’m a little low on the vegetable content, but still, this is so much better than my old meal routine.

Which was, for the record…

sausage egg mcmuffin, hash browns and a diet coke for breakfast

skip lunch, binge on sweet and salty almond bars at work

on the way home grab a quarter pounder with no pickles or onions (wouldn’t want to accidentally eat a veggie there)

don’t forget the large fries and another diet coke

go ahead and eat normal dinner anyway at home so the husband doesn’t catch on to the secret eating

Yeah.  I think I’ll take my meatloaf and milk and call that a victory.

Anyway, that whole list up there reminds me of this Tenacious D classic.  Forgive the vulgar language, but it’s Jack Black, people.

Taking Deep Breaths

My office mate is a nice lady.

This is my third full week working here.  (Summer job.  Teacher August-June, Tech Support June-August.)

The first week I liked her.

The second week I got annoyed that she chastised me for skipping lunch every day.

“You need to eat, you’re just slowing down your metabolism, and that makes it harder to lose weight.”

Umm… I didn’t say I was trying to lose weight… so… thanks.

Anyway, now that I am trying to lose weight I brought my lunch today like a good little girl.  A frozen dinner – house brand Lean Cuisine, basically.

“I used to eat a lot of that processed stuff but now I make my own from scratch.  So much healthier and better for your body.”

Yeah, yeah, yeah.  Stop one-upping me, lady.  I’m just trying NOT to run screaming for a Baconator right now.  Shut up and drink your home made protein bullshit.  Organic, grass fed, bull shit.

Have I mentioned I get a little mean when I’m hungry?